Tag: loss
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When Two Stars Collide
I always wanted to be something special to someone. “I thought you said you needed a friend.” I growled and I tried to sound stronger than I felt- because if he sensed any fear at all I knew the outcome would be worse than it already was. I’d been here before, in this situation at…
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Pennies From Heaven- A Love Letter From Dolly
Never did I think I’d find myself without you by my side Because as a kid death seemed like an entirely different ride And we had plans to go on every one EXCEPT that one For some reason I thought we’d only ever be having fun And we did while it lasted but really we…
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Leftover pebbles
You know I think I finally see The point of you and me It was never meant to be So it’ll stay a fantasy
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A Letter To The Friend Who Never Got To Be
Dear Friend, I wrote this one for you. Who would have ever thought I’d have to express myself in a letter, I sure thought I’d be able to say something sooner then this. I know it’s been a long time since we really talked. My health is in a weird state right now. Life has…
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Reflection of UGLY
Do you ever look back on your own actions and think woah my ego was over inflated? Because I find myself looking back and thinking how many apologies are thoroughly belated Though to always apologize leaves no room to sit and reflect on the darker sides of things Deeper then hurt the mirror is looking…
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Him
Do you realize how you worked your way through the tender parts of my heart Maybe this is payback for the times I tore others when I was falling apart Thinking you wanted me to stay so you wouldn’t have to be all alone Not realizing all I was to you was another midnight moan…
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Writer’s Block
Pen to paper doesn’t seem to work like it use to Because even though I sit in a pew I don’t feel holy I see every folly and scar and some days I hear ugly Sending pin cracks across my glee till it’s fragile Afraid, because I’m not always agile, I’ll break it Faking a…
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Dreaming With Open Eyes
I think of you here at 3am as I smoke I sit and think about my pain as I toke Looking at the ceiling remembering stars And when we laughed at passing cars Together seems tangible here in this space If only in my dreams and not face to face I’ll make it another day…
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What Loosing You Showed Me
You helped me paint this picture of a beautiful day between us So I tried not to fuss as I watched the walls of the castle tumble Although I did grumble when you left me a blind fool begging for attention I realized desprate’s definition of always searching outside of myself From liquor on the…
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About Your Grandpa…
This is for anyone experiencing loss of someone they love. But in particular this is for a person I wish I’d been able to tell this to when they needed to hear it. I never meant to laugh, but death honestly makes me uncomfortable and I wish I could have put your pain at more…
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The Bucket List Kiss
I watched the Bucket List and the first thing I put was to kiss him You and I met once upon a time in a land not so far away And needless to say I fell head over heels for my first pretty boy Now I don’t mean to sound coy but you made me…
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Contradictory Voices Of The Lovesick Mind
Love like you’re gonna die tomorrow! Though I’m ever so terrified of sorrow… But what if it hurts me and I live with the pain? So what if it hurts you smile and cry in the rain! They are everything I’ve ever wanted! But their memory could leave me haunted… Be the check mark in…
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Familiar Face In A Stranger
“Why do you keep looking at me like I ruined your childhood?” my coworker, asked me. “I don’t know. I’m sorry. Maybe that’s just my face.” I mumbled from behind my mask. I tried to avoid eye contact with him for the rest of the day but deep down my heart hurt. I couldn’t help…
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The Final Goodbye- PS. I Will Always Love You
Her kidneys were failing her that much she knew She hid it because she didn’t want the world to be sad too Staying away from doctors because she kept it between her and her crew But she was afraid so she began to write all she knew: ps. I love you Apologies and long hugs…
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Breathing
In….1,2,3 Out…..1,2,3 I find myself having to constantly remind my body to complete this simple function. As anxiety creeps it’s ugly head around the darkest recesses of my mind, blocking out the light. Suddenly this task is something I find myself bribing my body to do. Sometimes I’d prefer to stop and let the pain…
The Journey 